Get your ow
n diary at DiaryLand.com! contact me older entries newest entry

2:53 am - May 24, 2004
Rainy Songs
Well this town has closed down, way too early
And there's nothing to do
So I'm driving around in circles
And I'm thinking about you
Today I heard you got a new last name
I sure didn't know it was gonna hit me this way
And the radio just keeps on playing all these
Songs About Rain...

Now there's all kinds of songs about babies
and love that goes right,
But for some unknown reason
Nobody wants to play them tonight,
Hey, I hope it's sunny wherever you are
That's sure not the picture, tonight in my car
And it sure ain't easin' my pain
All these songs like...

"Rainy Night In Georgia" and "Kentucky Rain"
"Here Comes That Rainy Day Feeling Again",
"Blue Eyes Cryin" in the "Early Morning Rain"
They go on and on, and there's no two the same
Oh it would be easy to blame all these Songs About Rain

Well, I thought I was over you
But I guess maybe I'm not
'Cause when I let you go
Looks like lonely is all that I got
I guess I'll never know what could have been
it sure ain't helping this mood that I'm in
If they're gonna keep on playin these songs like...

"Rainy Night In Georgia" and "Kentucky Rain"
"Here Comes That Rainy Day Feeling Again",
"Blue Eyes Cryin" in the "Early Morning Rain"
They go on and on, and there's no two the same
Oh how I wish I could blame all these Songs About Rain

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sometimes I wonder if I did the right thing when I broke up with him. Sometimes I feel like maybe I did love him, and still do. God that was like 2 and a half years ago, and I still wonder if I fucked it all up.

I'm trying to let it go. I mean, he's engaged now, and it's too late to go back. Plus how do I know it would even work a second time around? What if it all ended up shitty a second time? I couldnt handle breaking his heart again. Not to mention I could handle getting mine broken again by him. Plus that little fact that I dont think he even loves me anymore.

And does it matter? What would I even do if he suddenly called out of the blue and said "Hey I love you after all and I think its all fucked up and we need to talk about this."

I don't know. And the fact that I don't know scares me. Does that mean that I do love him? Or what? Cos if I definetly didnt love him I"d automatically think "no" or at least feel that I would answer that way. Right?

I dont know. All I know is I'm rambling. So I best stop before this stops making any kind of sense at all.

previous - next

about me - read my profile! read other Diar
yLand diaries! recommend my diary to a friend! Get
 your own fun + free diary at DiaryLand.com!